but i treat everything as a lesson.. the pain and sweetness stride hand in hand...learnt an important lesson (one goes down in my life so called as experience!!)
A LESSON abt myself...pondering over my inner self..i got to no more and more abt myself...strange thing i realized!!..i am not the one i thought i am!! am sumone else..probably i have tried to imitate the one i wanted to be(but never made tat)my imitation on tryin to be sumone has nothin but went in vain!:-(
I am not bold enough to take care of myself..am probably meek!!..tryin to be strong but to no avail!!..i have started to come up in terms of my true self.. perviously i thought i am loner person and hate to live in crowd!! but no tats not wat my inner self want..knowingly or unknowingly it has bonded with relationships tat it cant forgo with..it relies heavily on these valued strings wen in trouble..yeah!!i am searchin for people whom i want to lean on!!..fortunately i have got this wonderful people around me who care for me...this golden week (the hell of my life!!)..i came to no abt this beautiful people who stood wit me!!..just for me!!(THANK U GUYS!)..for ever i am grateful to u!!
one quality i have tried to come up in terms with..is my lack of self confidence..shit i dont have a penny of it!!..though i thought all these age a had attitude..but attitude comes with confidence..i had tried to ignore this grave fact altogether!!omg:-(..
As of now nothin is rotten yet!!i still have a life of my own..and yes surrounded wit lots of MY PEOPLE in it!!..now i vil try to resolve things in much calmer and dignified manner!!..with wishes from the heart of my beloved:-)..
feel grt and relieved after writing this!!!:-)
